Month: May 2019

Breathing Under Water

𝐼𝑑’𝑠 π‘›π‘–π‘”β„Žπ‘‘π‘‘π‘–π‘šπ‘’ π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ πΌβ€™π‘š 𝑖𝑛 𝑑𝑒𝑒𝑝 π‘€π‘Žπ‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘  π‘π‘™π‘’π‘‘π‘β„Žπ‘–π‘›π‘” π‘œπ‘›π‘‘π‘œ π‘Ž π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘π‘˜ π‘π‘œπ‘’π‘™π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿ π‘œπ‘› π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘π‘Žπ‘›π‘˜. πΌβ€™π‘š π‘‘π‘–π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘‘ π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘ π‘π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘’π‘‘ π‘π‘’π‘π‘Žπ‘’π‘ π‘’ πΌβ€™π‘š 𝑏𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 π‘‘π‘œ π‘™π‘œπ‘ π‘’ π‘šπ‘¦ π‘”π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘ π‘Žπ‘  π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Ÿπ‘’π‘›π‘‘ 𝑖𝑠 π‘ π‘‘π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘›π‘” π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘’π‘›π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘™π‘’π‘›π‘‘π‘–π‘›π‘”. 𝐴 π‘™π‘Žπ‘‘π‘¦ π‘œπ‘› π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘ β„Žπ‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘’ π‘Žπ‘π‘π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘Žπ‘β„Žπ‘’π‘  π‘šπ‘’. 𝐼 π‘π‘Žπ‘™π‘™ π‘œπ‘’π‘‘ π‘‘π‘œ β„Žπ‘’π‘Ÿ, β€œπ‘ƒπ‘™π‘’π‘Žπ‘ π‘’, π‘π‘™π‘’π‘Žπ‘ π‘’, 𝑔𝑒𝑑 π‘ π‘œπ‘šπ‘’π‘œπ‘›π‘’ π‘‘π‘œ β„Žπ‘’π‘™π‘ π‘šπ‘’β€¦πΌ 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 π‘ π‘œπ‘šπ‘’π‘œπ‘›π‘’ π‘€β„Žπ‘œβ€™π‘  𝑏𝑖𝑔 π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘ π‘‘π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘›π‘”β€¦π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Ÿπ‘’π‘›π‘‘ 𝑖𝑠 𝑝𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 π‘šπ‘’ π‘’π‘›π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿβ€¦β„Žπ‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Ÿπ‘¦, β„Žπ‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Ÿπ‘¦, π‘π‘™π‘’π‘Žπ‘ π‘’!” 𝐼𝑑’𝑠 π‘‘π‘Žπ‘˜π‘–π‘›π‘” π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘™π‘Žπ‘‘π‘¦ π‘ π‘’π‘β„Ž π‘Ž π‘™π‘œπ‘›π‘” π‘‘π‘–π‘šπ‘’ π‘‘π‘œ π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘› π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘šπ‘¦ π‘π‘œπ‘‘π‘¦ 𝑖𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 π‘‘π‘œ π‘ π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Ÿπ‘’π‘›π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿβ€¦π‘œβ„Ž πΊπ‘œπ‘‘, π‘œβ„Ž πΊπ‘œπ‘‘β€¦. π‘Šβ„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ 𝑖𝑓 𝐼 𝑗𝑒𝑠𝑑 π‘ π‘–π‘›π‘˜ π‘–π‘›π‘‘π‘œ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘€π‘Žπ‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿ π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘Žπ‘‘β„Žπ‘’? πΌβ€™π‘š π‘ π‘™π‘œπ‘€π‘™π‘¦ π‘ π‘–π‘›π‘˜π‘–π‘›π‘” π‘‘π‘œπ‘€π‘›, π‘‘π‘œπ‘€π‘›, π‘‘π‘œπ‘€π‘›. 𝑂𝑀𝐺! πΌβ€™π‘š π‘π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘Žπ‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘›π‘”! 𝐴𝑙𝑙 π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘€π‘Žπ‘¦ π‘‘π‘œ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿ π‘“π‘™π‘œπ‘œπ‘Ÿ 𝐼 π‘ π‘–π‘›π‘˜, 𝑦𝑒𝑑 πΌβ€™π‘š π‘π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘Žπ‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘›π‘” π‘›π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘šπ‘Žπ‘™π‘™π‘¦. 𝐼 β„Žπ‘’π‘Žπ‘Ÿ 𝑒π‘₯π‘π‘™π‘œπ‘ π‘–π‘£π‘’ π‘ π‘œπ‘’π‘›π‘‘π‘ , π‘™π‘–π‘˜π‘’ π‘”π‘’π‘›π‘“π‘–π‘Ÿπ‘’. 𝐼 π‘™π‘œπ‘œπ‘˜ 𝑒𝑝 π‘‘β„Žπ‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘’π‘”β„Ž π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘€π‘Žπ‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘  π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ 𝑠𝑒𝑒 π‘“π‘–π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘¦ π‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘ π‘‘π‘  π‘Žπ‘”π‘Žπ‘–π‘›π‘ π‘‘ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘›π‘–π‘”β„Žπ‘‘ π‘ π‘˜π‘¦ π‘Žπ‘  𝐼 β„Žπ‘’π‘Žπ‘Ÿ π‘šπ‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘’ π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘π‘–π‘‘ π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘’π‘›π‘‘π‘  π‘œπ‘“ π‘“π‘–π‘Ÿπ‘’. π‘‡β„Žπ‘’π‘Ÿπ‘’β€™π‘  π‘Ž π‘€π‘Žπ‘Ÿ π‘”π‘œπ‘–π‘›π‘” π‘œπ‘› π‘Žπ‘  𝐼 π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘‘π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘Žπ‘‘ π‘šπ‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘’ 𝑑𝑒𝑒𝑝𝑙𝑦 π‘–π‘›π‘‘π‘œ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘ π‘Žπ‘“π‘’π‘‘π‘¦ π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘π‘Žπ‘™π‘š. π΄π‘“π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿ π‘Ž π‘€β„Žπ‘–π‘™π‘’ 𝐼 π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘› π‘‘π‘œ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘π‘œπ‘’π‘™π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿ π‘Žπ‘‘ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘π‘Žπ‘›π‘˜ π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘Ž π‘™π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘”π‘’ π‘šπ‘Žπ‘› π‘–π‘›π‘ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘π‘™π‘¦ π‘ π‘€π‘œπ‘œπ‘π‘  π‘šπ‘’ π‘œπ‘’π‘‘ π‘œπ‘“ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘€π‘Žπ‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿ. 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 π‘π‘Žπ‘™π‘š.

I had this dream a few years ago, shortly after returning from a beautifully educative and nurturing pilgrimage in the land of KMT (Ancient Egypt). It was the final months leading toward the 2016 presidential election when political noise, deception and rhetoric paraded with grandest fervor that reiterated terrifying events and memories of the past and unfortunately ongoing. I recall the sense of dread I felt as I and others in my travel group expressed as we passed through Customs and re-entered the cacophony of U.S. culture staccato-ed on suspended television screens throughout the airport.

Are there things that deeply scare you and you do everything within your power to bypass your fear and vulnerability? Are there ways you hold onto and manage your fear, try to stay afloat, on top of things, in control of your and emotions instead of own your real feelings? Eventually, it can become tiring.

In my dream, I’m losing my grip trying to hold myself together, as if I have the power to do so all by myself. I’m panicky and know that I’m in trouble…my efforts absolutely futile and my only choice is to let go. Thank goodness, a part of me that knows to do just that! There is a Great Current inside of you and me that can carry us through the noise and ruckus in the world, the threat of loss, illness, the death of a relationship, social struggle and hardship. In my dream, the strong Undercurrent, the Woman and the Man are standing in the collective role of the Divine…call it God, the Archetypes, the Source…whatever is the language you use for the Highest Power greater than your own mind and ego. It’s a force that can seem terrifying when you’re used to being in control.

The Woman takes her time to come back to me and the Man is not going to show up until I let go. They are with me all along…but I have to let go of my own devices in order to know my need for Them. We can stay in the panicky place of trying to hold it together on or own, or let go, and surrender to the Love and Support that’s greater. As citizens of this world, we are not guaranteed lives without disappointments, loss and terror. But we are guaranteed that we do not have to suffer alone and ungrounded. We can say, “I’m afraid, I’m feeling insecure, I’m embarrassed, I feel judged and ashamed”…all the taboos that society says, “Don’t feel!” And from the place of our soul’s honesty we can know and receive the support in and for us that comes from the Divine. Allow that support to carry you to new depths of consciousness so that you can become more empowered, resourceful and truly passionate in whatever is your role or purpose in this life. Yes, back on the shore there will be rocky boulders, and noise, and chaos AND you will be different in it as the one who is carried by the Great Master, the Divine Teacher and Healer, the Archetypes…the Ones who alchemize our fears, suffering and insecurities into the Calm of acceptance, self-love, internal order and balance, real joy,Β  real power, and radical change. Are you learning to breathe in deep waters?

If you would like to know more about Archetypal Dreamwork or discuss one of your dreams, reach out to me at email me directly at nowjourneyhome@gmail.com.

Love,
Cheptu