𝐼𝑡’𝑠 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼’𝑚 𝑖𝑛 𝑑𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑐𝑙𝑢𝑡𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑎 𝑟𝑜𝑐𝑘 𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑛𝑘. 𝐼’𝑚 𝑡𝑖𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝐼’𝑚 𝑏𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑔𝑟𝑖𝑝 𝑎𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑢𝑛𝑟𝑒𝑙𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔. 𝐴 𝑙𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑎𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑠 𝑚𝑒. 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑒𝑟, “𝑃𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒, 𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒, 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑝 𝑚𝑒…𝐼 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑜’𝑠 𝑏𝑖𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔…𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑝𝑢𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟…ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑟𝑦, ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑟𝑦, 𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒!” 𝐼𝑡’𝑠 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝑠𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑖𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟…𝑜ℎ 𝐺𝑜𝑑, 𝑜ℎ 𝐺𝑜𝑑…. 𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑓 𝐼 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑘 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑒? 𝐼’𝑚 𝑠𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑙𝑦 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛, 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛, 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛. 𝑂𝑀𝐺! 𝐼’𝑚 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔! 𝐴𝑙𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑟 𝐼 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑘, 𝑦𝑒𝑡 𝐼’𝑚 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑜𝑟𝑚𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦. 𝐼 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑠, 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑔𝑢𝑛𝑓𝑖𝑟𝑒. 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑢𝑝 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑏𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑡𝑠 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑠𝑘𝑦 𝑎𝑠 𝐼 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑟𝑎𝑝𝑖𝑑 𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑓𝑖𝑟𝑒. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒’𝑠 𝑎 𝑤𝑎𝑟 𝑔𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑛 𝑎𝑠 𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑒𝑝𝑙𝑦 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑓𝑒𝑡𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑚. 𝐴𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎 𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑒 𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎 𝑙𝑎𝑟𝑔𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑠𝑤𝑜𝑜𝑝𝑠 𝑚𝑒 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟. 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑚.
I had this dream a few years ago, shortly after returning from a beautifully educative and nurturing pilgrimage in the land of KMT (Ancient Egypt). It was the final months leading toward the 2016 presidential election when political noise, deception and rhetoric paraded with grandest fervor that reiterated terrifying events and memories of the past and unfortunately ongoing. I recall the sense of dread I felt as I and others in my travel group expressed as we passed through Customs and re-entered the cacophony of U.S. culture staccato-ed on suspended television screens throughout the airport.
Are there things that deeply scare you and you do everything within your power to bypass your fear and vulnerability? Are there ways you hold onto and manage your fear, try to stay afloat, on top of things, in control of your and emotions instead of own your real feelings? Eventually, it can become tiring.
In my dream, I’m losing my grip trying to hold myself together, as if I have the power to do so all by myself. I’m panicky and know that I’m in trouble…my efforts absolutely futile and my only choice is to let go. Thank goodness, a part of me that knows to do just that! There is a Great Current inside of you and me that can carry us through the noise and ruckus in the world, the threat of loss, illness, the death of a relationship, social struggle and hardship. In my dream, the strong Undercurrent, the Woman and the Man are standing in the collective role of the Divine…call it God, the Archetypes, the Source…whatever is the language you use for the Highest Power greater than your own mind and ego. It’s a force that can seem terrifying when you’re used to being in control.
The Woman takes her time to come back to me and the Man is not going to show up until I let go. They are with me all along…but I have to let go of my own devices in order to know my need for Them. We can stay in the panicky place of trying to hold it together on or own, or let go, and surrender to the Love and Support that’s greater. As citizens of this world, we are not guaranteed lives without disappointments, loss and terror. But we are guaranteed that we do not have to suffer alone and ungrounded. We can say, “I’m afraid, I’m feeling insecure, I’m embarrassed, I feel judged and ashamed”…all the taboos that society says, “Don’t feel!” And from the place of our soul’s honesty we can know and receive the support in and for us that comes from the Divine. Allow that support to carry you to new depths of consciousness so that you can become more empowered, resourceful and truly passionate in whatever is your role or purpose in this life. Yes, back on the shore there will be rocky boulders, and noise, and chaos AND you will be different in it as the one who is carried by the Great Master, the Divine Teacher and Healer, the Archetypes…the Ones who alchemize our fears, suffering and insecurities into the Calm of acceptance, self-love, internal order and balance, real joy, real power, and radical change. Are you learning to breathe in deep waters?
If you would like to know more about Archetypal Dreamwork or discuss one of your dreams, reach out to me at email me directly at firstname.lastname@example.org.